Hi Ren Lyrics
Hi there, Ren
It’s been a little while
Did you miss me?
You thought you’d buried me, didn’t you? Risky
Because I always come back
Deep down, you know that
Deep down, you know I’m always in periphery
Ren, aren’t you pleased to see me? It’s been weeks since we spoke, bro
You know you need me
You’re the sheep, I’m the shepherd
Not your place to lead me
Not your place to be biting off the hand that feeds me
I’ve been taking some time to be distant
I’ve been taking some time to be still
I’ve been taking some time to be by myself since my therapist told me I’m ill
I’ve been making some progress lately, and I’ve learned some new coping skills
So I haven’t really needed you much, man
I think we need to just step back and chill
Ren, you sound more insane than I do
You think that those doctors are really there to guide you?
Been through this a million times
Your civilian mind is so perfect at always being lied to
Okay, take another pill, boy
Drown yourself in the sound of white noise
Follow this 10-step program, rejoice!
All your problems will be gone! Fucking dumb boy
Nah, mate, this time it’s different man, trust me
I feel like things might be falling in place
And my music’s been kinda doing bits too
Like I actually might do something great
And when I’m gone, maybe I’ll be remembered
For doing something special with myself
That’s why I don’t think that we should talk, man
Cause when you’re with me, it never seems to help
You think that you can amputate me?
I am you, you are me, you are I, I am we
We are one, split in two that makes one, so you see
You got to kill you if you wanna kill me
I’m not left over dinner, I’m not scraps on the side, oh, your music is thriving?
Delusional guy! Where’s your top ten hit? Where’s your interview with Oprah?
Where are your Grammys Ren?
Yeah but, my music’s not commercial like that
I never chased numbers, statistics, or stats
I Never write hooks for the radio, they never even play me
So why would I concern myself with that?
But my music is really connecting
And the people who find it respect it
And for me that’s enough, ‘cause this life’s been tough
So it gives me a purpose I can rest in
Man, you sound so pretentious!
Ren, your music is so self-centred
No one wants to hear another song about how much you hate yourself
You should be so lucky having me inside you to guide you, remind you to manage expectations, provide you perspective, that thing you neglected, I get it
You wanna be a big deal
Next Jimi Hendrix? Forget it
Man, it’s not like that
Man, it’s just like that, I’m inside you, you twat
Nah, it’s not man, you’re wrong, when I write, I belong!
Let me break the fourth wall by acknowledging this song
Ren sits down
Has a stroke of genius
He wants to write a song that was not done previous
A battle with his subconscious
Eminem did it
Played on guitar
Plan B did it
Man, you’re not original, you criminal, rip off artist
The pinnacle of your success is stealing other people’s material
Ren, mate, we’ve heard it all before
Ohh, She sells seashells on the sea shore
Fuck you, I don’t need you, I don’t need to hear this
‘Cause I’m fine by myself, I’m a genius!
And I will be great, and I will make waves
And ill shake up the whole world beneath us
That’s right speak your truth, your fucking God complex leaks out of you
It’s refreshing to actually hear you say it!
Instead of downplaying it
Oh, the music Is all about the creative process
And if people can find something to relate to within that, then that’s just a bonus
Fuck you, I’ma fucking kill you, Ren
Well, fucking kill me then
Let’s fucking have you, Ren
I’ma do it, watch me prove it, who are you to doubt my music?
‘Cause I call the shots I choose if you die
Yeah, I call the shots, and so I choose who survives
I’ll tie you up in knots, then I’ll lock you inside
I was created at the dawn of creation
I am temptation
I am the snake in Eden
I am the reason for treason
Beheading all Kings
I am sin with no rhyme or reason
Sun of the morning, Lucifer
Antichrist, father of lies
Truth in a blender
The Banished avenger
The righteous surrender
When standing in front of my solar eclipse
My name is stitched to your lips, so see
I won’t bow to the will of a mortal, feeble and normal
You wanna kill me? I’m eternal, immortal
I live in every decision that catalysed chaos
That causes division
I live inside death, the beginning of ends
I am you, you are me, I am you, Ren
I’ve been taking some time to be distant
I’ve been taking some time to be still
I’ve been taking some time to be by myself, and I’ve spent half my life ill
But, just as sure as the tide start turning
Just as sure as the night has dawn
Just as sure as rain fall soon runs dry when you stand in the eye of the storm
I was made to be tested and twisted
I was made to be broken and beat
I was made by His hand, it’s all part of the plan that I stand on my own two feet
And you know me my will is eternal
And you know me, you’ve met Me before
Face to with a beast, I will rise from the east, and I’ll settle on the ocean floor
And I go by many names also
Some people know me as hope
Some people know me as the voice that you hear
When you loosen the noose on the rope
And you know how I know how I know that I’ll prosper?
Because I stand here beside you today
I have stood in the flames that cremated my brain
And I didn’t once flinch or shake
So cower at the man I’ve become
When I sing from the top of my lungs
That I won’t retire I’ll stand in your fire inspire the meek to be strong
And when I am gone I will rise
In the music that I left behind
Ferocious persistent, immortal like you
We’re a coin with two different sides
When I was 17 years old I shouted out into an empty room, I
Nto a blank canvas, that I would defeat the forces of evil
And for the next 10 years of my life I suffered the consequences
With Illness, autoimmunity and psychosis
As I got older, I realised that there were no real winners
Or no real losers in physiological warfare
But there were victims and there were students
It wasn’t David versus Goliath, it was a pendulum
Eternally swaying between the dark and the light
And the brighter the light shone, the darker the shadow it cast
It was never a battle for me to win, it was an eternal dance
And like a dance, the more rigid I became, the harder it got
The more I cursed my clumsy footsteps, the more I suffered
And so I got older, and I learned to relax, and I learned to soften
And that dance got easier
It is this eternal waltz that separates human beings from angels, from demons, from gods
And I must not forget, we must not forget, that we are human beings
About Ren Gill
Ren is a Brighton-based singer/songwriter, producer, rapper, busker, poet, and multi-instrumentalist known for his collaborative music work with other singers.
Former member of Trick The Fox, alongside Charlie Fowler & Tom Frampton, and The Big Push, alongside Romain Axisa & Gorran Kendall.
Ren became severely ill with Lyme Disease. He continued his music career being bedbound. He gained popularity through Money Game part 2 which became viral via a Luigi clone based on the “Sea Shells” verse which became a meme in early March 2021.
About the Video From Ren’s FB post.
Your response to it has made it totally made that process worthwhile. Been really moved reading through all the comments
I don’t have a label, so grafting as hard as possible to spread it as far as I can and sometimes pushing these things as hard as I want becomes a massive challenge, and I find myself frustrated that there aren’t enough hours in the day to push it as far as I want to.
I would love to ask a favor of anyone who has ever enjoyed my music over the years, and it will only take a few minutes of your day.
It would mean the world to me if you shared ‘Hi Ren’ as much as you can, over social media platforms, with friends, over email with other channels, people with large platforms
With your help, we can hopefully reach people all over the world, and be able to scale up the ambition of future projects! Would mean a lot!